She is 12 years old… yet inside she feels much older.
She is scared and confused. She is unloved and unwanted. Her clothes are worn and tattered, her hair is frizzy and uncombed. Her family has cast her aside. She is just a few shades darker, her hair just a few layers thicker, yet somehow that is enough reason to tell her she does not belong. She is naive. She is shy. Her self-esteem is utterly broken. Although she has visited a few churches in her life, she does not know the Lord. She has heard His name spoken. She has read a few verses. Yet she is still empty, with a void no one can fill.
She is 12 years old…and already thinking suicide.
Her mother is nowhere to be found. Her father just doesn’t get it. She wonders if there is a God, and if He notices the words that have been carved into her heart. “You are good for nothing,” “You will never amount to anything,” “Why can’t you be more like your sisters?” “Why were you born?” “Are you even mine?”
She is 12 years old…and walks into a Friday youth service
She is wearing a navy blue dress down to her knees. The dress has red and purple flowers. She will forever remember this dress, and the details of this day, yet she does not know it yet. While the music plays she begins to cry. She does not know how the tears started, and why her chest feels like it will burst. She sobs uncontrollably. She cannot make it stop. She is broken. The preacher calls all the youth to come forward. She watches from her seat as about 10 of them go up. He begins to pray over their lives. When suddenly he looks over at her, signals her with his finger, and tells her to come forward. She doesn’t notice the finger pointing at her, her eyes are closed. But she feels the finger of God pointing at her heart. She walks up, trembling and scared.
She is 12 years old…when God speaks to her heart
The preacher tells her to stand in the middle of a circle formed by the youth. He looks at her and asks the congregation “Does this girl know the Lord?” Her eyes are still closed. She cannot hear what people are saying, she does not want to hear them. She just wants to hear the Lord. Suddenly he says to the youth, words coming from the very mouth of God “Look at her, all of you! For she is my mirror. Every time you want to know how you should be, how you should act, how you should look…look at her, and you will see Me.”
She is 12 years old…when she gives her heart to the Lord
She did not know the Lord, but He had known her all her life. He had been watching her steps, He had been following her closely, and He has saved her from all the pain and hurt that tried to hold her captive. And though she may seem to be just a young girl, she is signaled out with a divine purpose. She is saved, and from this day forward her life will never be the same.